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| Everyone in my college graduating class (not that we all graduated in May, but you get the idea) is feeling really alone right now. Hasn't been a problem with people who I don't know from school, so it must be that we're at a critical point. It's very strange, because you'd think since all these people are obviously interconnected, they would seek each other out and not be lonely. Part of the problem is that everyone's schedules are conflicting or they're scattered all over the place. However, I think most of it is simply that we don't know how to relate to each other now that the college milestone is behind us. These are people whose schedules I knew and I've been seeing around campus for years- not much of a reason to get into the habit of calling every other day or week.
It's amazing how quickly I've fallen into the habit of talking to the
group from college like I do the group from high school. How are you,
are you seeing anyone, have you talked to anyone, how's
school/work?....and so forth. As though I didn't see these people all
the time as of a few months ago.
It would be easy (but really not) to say that it's just a matter of finding out who your friends really are. But I don't think that's really it. It's more of finding out who your friends will be....who is the kind of person keeps friends out of more than convience, who will pick up the phone the most often (or at least as often as you do) who will tie the group together when there is nothing else, who will REALLY always be there when you need them.
And the trouble, really, is that we just don't know. We were all ready to be done at finals this spring- ready to graduate, ready to move on to our last year, ready for our jobs, ready for grad school, ready to just move on. But I think we didn't think about just how much everything would change.......after all, you seem to graduate high school with a roar and college with a whimper. We are adults now, after all.......
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| i think i may be ready to be productive now.......i've been completely useless for 2 days, which is apparently what i need at the beginig of all breaks......now i guess i need to get on those 3 papers i have hanging over my head.
natalia's wedding was sunday. it went well, although i think i may seriously consider saying no the next time someone asks me to be thier matron of honor.....it's completely exhasting. | | |
| and now i'm home. it's about damn time. it was worth it though, espically since i got to see my cousin for the first time in 5 or 6 years. it's odd that we're as close as we are, since i could probably count on my hands the number of times we've seen each other. he's been in the military since he graduated high school, so we haven't even been able to talk that often. he seems to just be one of the those people that you can always go back to.
anyway, so now i'm home to be in natalia's wedding. of course the top i'm wearing for the wedding doesn't fit, but she doesn't need to know that. i'll just fix it. thank god mom can fix these things. i do have to go get some shoes....or perhaps i'll just say fuck it and go barefoot. certain OTHER PEOPLE seem to feel that they should do whatever they feel like and not worry about what nat wants......she doesn't even have a bad case of the bridal crazies, but there's really no reason to push it 2 DAYS before the wedding.
the nice thing about weddings, though, is that no matter how obessed you are about tiny details, they really don't matter. knowing that BEFORE i got married made things a lot easier. | | |
| So I'm still stuck in Friday Harbor.....and facebook and my email account are simply not enough to keep me amused while I'm waiting on the slugs to turn (no, really). apprently myspace is owned by some evil corporation or another, so i'm giving the blog thing a shot. we'll see how it goes without having interent in the apartment (a situation that I hope to remedy when i get back). | | |
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